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Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Sad and Angry

I never thought that anything could be as painful as losing my mother to cancer. I was wrong.

Our grandson, Beckett was stillborn on Friday, February 17th. It was quite possibly the worst day of my life to this point. Watching our daughter hear that her son was no longer alive inside her was heart wrenching and then hearing her scream is something that I do not believe I will ever forget as long as I have breath to breathe. I wanted to take that pain from her and I could not. It's just not right and was so unfair. My beautiful, loving daughter who is a fabulous mother loses her child and then there are those who have babies like rabbits and can't and don't take care of them ... something is seriously wrong with this picture.

I am waiting for God to speak to me and help me get a grasp on this situation. The sadness I can deal with a bit better than the anger.